Throwbacks and such ♡

I remember making this lunch aggggeeeees ago when I went with my dad to a museum and I still think it was the best one ever. It was like in 2010, and this was all part of recovery and everything and yeah... I don't know just it's nice to feel nostalgic about things once in a while I guess.

And thiiiis is what I live off when I go to my grandma's house, as she's very much a carnivore. Honestly I feel quite angry that I live in Germany where they sell like nothing nice, mainly meat and all that, and ugh. I get such baaaad heartburn from it it's kept me awake at night sobbing, pretty traumatic. 

Anywayyyy end of the nostalgic twilight kinda post here, I'm tired and off to bed to brace myself for tomorrow, going to be a living sort of personal hell. ♡

GUIDELINES OF MAJOR IMPORTANCE

So there's a few rules for next week:

1. NO SKIPPING OUT ON WATER (fainting in school is not classy)
2. Plenty of fruit + soy yoghurt
3. A minimum of nine hours of sleep!!!!!
4. Doing homework from 17:30 - 21:00, then from 21:00 - 21:45 FREE TIME
5. Try and get some fresh air!
6. No skipping meals!!! 
7. No quick fix energy drinks!!!
8. No negative self hating thoughts
9. Switch off the anonymous option on tumblr if getting too much hate!
10. Horse riding must be done on a full stomach.
11. Take time to yourself!

Fridayyyyyyyyyyy~~

Incidentally lunch was hard on Friday.. It took me about an hour to finish just this and that's just ugh, stupid. -.- I guess I was stressed about work, MIS, MUN, CAS hours... You know IB student stuff that makes you anxious and gives you shaky hands.
Also, somebody just said that I have some kind of Dermatillomania . I think Imma check that with the doctor first, I'm not really into self diagnosis, especially seeing as it's only on my lips.
Anyway, green peppers, vegan made omelet (kind of weird egg substitute.. don't get me wrong, it was actually really nice, just a funny texture I guess ^^), & half a bagel with low fat content (but kind of annoyed that it was white, not wholewheat..), for heartburn purposes. The Gaviscon stuff isn't working as well as it used to I don't think and it's a bit irritating.. <.< It's usually brilliant but I think I've developed a kind of immunity to it. Obviously this would happen ugh... ^^

Niiiiiice guys~~~~~~

Okay, I just have to say that this is probably my feel good mood sort of thing. Just omg. This will always make me feel okay about things.

Thoughts on 'recovery' and intakes...

I don't mean to be a negative bitch, or anything, and I realize I talk about it a lot, but this is sort of also a very private little-known blog so I guess it's okay. Anyway, I wish people wouldn't talk about food or what they eat in a day... Like I get it's 'normal' but it doesn't seem normal, why do we obsess and feel the need to talk about how much we eat in a day? Why do we do it? More importantly why does every teenage girl I know do it? It seems to be an obsession - a compulsive need, almost and quite frankly, my dear I don't give a damn. It makes me feel awfully triggered when I have to listen to it...
I'm starting a diet next week, because I'm sort of done being fat. Yes it's healthy and everything and no I'm not starving myself, I just hope people don't bother me about it because I don't want to talk about it... I don't want to have to explain myself to every Tom, Dick and Harry!! It's just stupid! I'm genuinely going to get pissed off about it if I have to hear somebody question me, it's my own damn business my good lord. -.-
In other news, I quite like the tracking of the meals I eat through photographs, makes me feel a lot less out of control of it, and more able to keep on top of things, so I think I'm going to ask my parents for a camera for Christmas along with a few Forever 21 items... ;)
The meal above is just a bowl of Oatmeal topped with fresh autumnal fruits - absolutely lovely! ♡♡

Western Chic ♡

There's this lovely style called Western Chic, and I'm a little in love with it. I just adore the jackets and that bag has my heart already after just a glance. Gosh, if only I had money! It's definitely a motivation to be doing well in school for me this kind of thing, when I think of how people want to afford this sort of stuff and just can't ugh. At least I won't ever be spoiled, this is definitely the bright side of the whole affair.
I have so much damn homework now I think about it and haven't even glanced at it since MUN - complete utter waste of time, that's about all I have to say about it, so boring as well! <.< Why did I ever sign up for it??
Now I have to think of something else to do for creative which is going to be suuuuch a pain in the arse omg, I don't even want to think about it just yet. :/ PROCRASTINATION FUCK YES. ♡

resolutions for october, yes late.

Exercising and a vegan diet as off Monday morning. I have my camelbak water bottle, my new salad container and all these sports clothes I ordered off Forever21.
I feel a bit better having done it, I just hope that school doesn't intervene with the way I've scheduled everything.